I've grown used to it - the music of you your rhythms your missteps the kaleidoscope that refracts you your fiery reds your sensual purples your puzzles the ticks and clicks - combination lock that unlocks me as I unlock it. into sublety into unconditional acceptance. And with you gone the missteps falter to a … Continue reading With you gone
I wrote a riddle when I was a teenager. Those that have no need of me Never do anything without me Those that starve of me Never give me a second thought. If you want to figure guess at it. Don't read any further than this until you're done. The answer is your conscience. At … Continue reading A new answer to an old riddle
He stared blankly in front of him. He'd been trying to suppress his thoughts with numbness, and for some time he'd lost himself in that fog. But he could only drift so long before his eyes refocused. Mother and father had gone quiet. Their fight was a tennissed shouting match punctuated by glass breaking and … Continue reading Gods of Ararat: Prologue
"When you have insomnia, you're never really awake, but you're never really asleep" - Tyler Durden Something like that I've never been able to sleep in exam rooms while waiting for the time to finish. I've never been able to sleep in cars or airplanes, and I've never had a nap. I'm lying in bed. … Continue reading A sleepless thought on insomnia
Two conventional types of sci-fi 1) In sci-fi, humanity often travels the stars. Either through massive speed, or by bending space-time to shorten the distance we have to travel, we colonise the universe. These stories usually centre around the things we find in space or the things we change into when millennia and lightyears separate … Continue reading The case for technological dictatorship. Orwell’s nightmare is humanity’s salvation.
Picture this if you will There is no god or gods. There is no karma or karmic justice visited on the wicked. Nothing happens for a reason, or to teach you an important lesson. Nothing carries inherent meaning. Nothing matters. Things just 'are'. This is the broad idea behind existentialism (which I ascribe to), absurdism … Continue reading The optimism in existentialism
Deadlines Everyone has them. Most people's lives are spells of inertness punctuated by a frenzied bustle before the deadline. For the Fry-cook, it's the person staring through the drive-thru window; for the editor, it's the time the typesetter needs to start layout; for the student, it's the exam. More than half (probably) of the people … Continue reading Living the dream
I'm a middle-class white male in my late twenties, in 2017 Statistically speaking, I've won a cosmic lottery in terms of opportunities and socio-economic status. I'm not 'rich'. At least I'm not rich by my idea of what rich is, because I still need to put in a hell of a lot of effort for … Continue reading The most frustrating conversation no one is having
An older post from my older blog. "Your oedipal complex, is written all over your soul, such a petty neurosis. What happened to the grand megalomaniacs of yesteryear? The Caesars and Napoleons? If you've got to be screwed in the head, do try to be more challenging about it." Mastigos - Mage, the Awakening. When … Continue reading Dictators with daddy issues
I don't care if it hurts I wanna have control I want a perfect body I want a perfect soul - Radiohead My OCD When I was six or seven, I had severe OCD. Every movement I made had to be mirrored on the other side of my body. Everything had to be in multiples … Continue reading OCD, eating disorders and a harsh word from someone who gets it.